So, February has come and gone… Dixie and I went to Charlotte to meet Kelsey!
Honestly,I was a really good trip, and a really hard trip.
I’ll explain what I mean…
Day one: 4am wake up call. 6 hour drive with a car-anxious pup.. I am SO excited when I see Charlotte, because its like WHOA GOD LOOK WHERE YOU BROUGHT ME FROM!!! and now in less than 4 months I’ll be calling this place “home”!!
Kelsey and I meet, and hit it off! Shes awesome! we are SO different… but it’s a good different! Long story short, we tour all these houses and apartments and i am SO BUMMBED by the end of the day… 1. I’m hormonal, 2. I’m exhausted 3. Dixie is exhausted so shes not really listening very well, and that’s our first impression….. 4. the apartments were wayyyy out of budget when it got down to it… 5. the house I love will be off the market before we are able to sign 6. I had higher expectations for today. This was my only chance to come to Charlotte and I wanted to find a home.
…..In this whole process, I KNOW I have to spend time with the Lord. My Anxiety level shoots WAY up when I don’t… so I know this!!! but I haven’t been because I’ve been super busy (excuses…) So that, plus all of the above, = melt down. I mean… Look at all that negativity! I am not a negative person. Nor am I a person to complain…
I’m sitting in my airbnb room with my exhausted puppy passed out next to me… Just crying. I was definitly letting the enemy get to me… It was working… I started questioning God. “Do you reallllllly want me to come? What am I doing? This is dumb..I don’t fit here. I didn’t find anything. I can’t be here alone… This is a mistake…”
and it turned into “Lord I don’t know what I’m doing , I just need you…” So I spent the rest of the night crying with the Lord and eventually shut out the enemy and focused on the Lord again.
I felt much better after time well spent, and sleep!
So..Day 2: I decided to go to the elevation church closest to my favorite coffee place… I took the train into Uptown. Got a coffee and walked to church. I don’t know how to describe it in words….. I have never cried as much, lifted my hands as much, felt the Lord as much in a sermon as that sermon!! It was a guest speaker, If you have never heard Bishop T.D Jakes preach, GO LISTEN. because WOW. and The Lord BLEW ME AWAY! Everything was straight from God’s heart to my ears! EXACTLY what I needed with the Lord that day…. I mean…WOW.
Has that ever happened to you?? Where you’re like OK GOD, I KNOW you’ve been listening!! because LITERALLY everything that I’ve been going through!! WHEW! And it lasted 2 hours! haha we had no idea it ran over because of How amazing God was being in there!! But yup… got there at 11:30, and left at 1:40 haha!! So good…. And not only was the sermon good. the Worship was exactly what I needed to get to that sweet place with the Lord.
AND the people were amazing!! Right off the bat, I met a girl who told me to meet with her after the service. She introduced me to some people and got my number. She has since texted me about getting coffee when I move there! before I left, I went to the welcome tent, There I met a girl named Chelsea. She was so inviting and genuine. She asked about my reason for moving, I told her the short version haha…. but I told her It was important for me to get plugged in because I need community. This random amazing stranger, took my number and invited me to her small group that night!! WHAT So, I met 4 other girls and a super cute pup that night! The girls were real. They weren’t putting on a show, they shared struggles, and laughs, and were very interested in my randomness. They were excited for me! and Proud of me for listening to the Lord. They were blown away by God! and They just showed me so much love. They made me feel a LOT better about moving too! So Now I have some girlfriends that love Jesus! and I can’t wait to move up there and start doing life with all these beautiful people!
AND Kelsey took me to a super yummy mexican food place!! (total necessity for me) So..GREAT DAY
God taught me a lot with that weekend…. The bad day, was a reminder that this is going to be hard…. That I still need Jesus… That my expectations for something need to line up with God’s vision for it, or they’ll always be let down. and that I need to learn how to praise him in the bad moments too…
The Good day taught me, God still cares!He is actively putting people in my path to plan out my steps. He has a plan!
Since then, Kelsey and I have found the perfect apartment! Literally came out of nowhere! I haven’t seen it in person, but I love the videos and feel so much peace about it. We have signed the lease! and I am officially moving April 24th! WEW!!
Your Love Is Strong 